so thought for the day- why dont rebounds ever get recognized for the good they do?? i mean...if you look at it they are so underestimated and go unnoticed most of the times! i find that both revolting and sad.
look at it this way...you would rather remember the name of the person who broke your heart into a million pieces than the name of the person who sits by your side, offers you tissue and picks up all those tiny pieces of that broken heart and fixes them back together.
you would rather remember the pain caused than the times when even through a falling tear there is a small smirk that comes to your lips.
you would rather live with all the pain than walk that extra mile to being happy.
it all finally comes down to priorities: do you want to waste your life being sad or do you want to take that little extra effort and get your life back on track?
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
i really wish i was someone's priority. but then i console myself saying that i love the freedom i have now. god knows what will happen over the next few years.
maybe im just worried...i grow old by the day. i see friends getting married, getting into long-term relationships, friends in relationships getting to better heights and then i ask myself...why not me? where is life taking me? what does it have in store for me?
and the answer is so simple and one that im now used to accepting -
at a big question mark!
but thats ok. it not like i have a problem with it. im optimistic enough and will not stop dreaming. in a recent status message one of friends wrote- i love happy endings! i agree! i love them too. and i wait for mine...
maybe im just worried...i grow old by the day. i see friends getting married, getting into long-term relationships, friends in relationships getting to better heights and then i ask myself...why not me? where is life taking me? what does it have in store for me?
and the answer is so simple and one that im now used to accepting -
at a big question mark!
but thats ok. it not like i have a problem with it. im optimistic enough and will not stop dreaming. in a recent status message one of friends wrote- i love happy endings! i agree! i love them too. and i wait for mine...
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Alive.Flawed.Human.
It’s funny how we are always surrounded by people…and yet the sense of loneliness just gets to you. You try to stop it. You try to resist it. You try to fight it. You try to ignore it. And finally when it just does not go away… You accept it.
It’s like some people find it difficult to share a chocolate with somebody else. Some want to and cant because they don’t have anyone to share it with. Some just give up eating the chocolate. As for some, after a point of time the chocolate has no taste. You can feed and feed…but it will make no taste bud on your tongue tingle.
Life puts you through various tests. The idea is to see if you will survive.
I choose to and therefore I will.
Nothing will suck out the optimism that lies deeply imbedded in both me and my inner consciousness that I neither know much about nor am oblivious to its existence.
I am what I am and that’s all what I am.
Im not good. Im not evil.
Im plain ol' me.
Alive.Flawed.Human.
Monday, March 1, 2010
28 February 2010
A strong gush of wind. a horde of people clustered in a narrow corridor around a tiny little child that lay there.Red-wine like substance all around him. Gasping for air. Sipping on water. He drew his last breath. An image that will never leave my eyes.He passed away last night. I didnt know him and now I will never know him either.
At the end of it all... what will remain with me is the vacant expression in his childlike eyes. The eyes that will never see the dawn of the morning sun again...never again.
But I will say this... wherever you are...I, like all the others...hope your'e happy. Content with the life you have led.
At the end of it all... what will remain with me is the vacant expression in his childlike eyes. The eyes that will never see the dawn of the morning sun again...never again.
But I will say this... wherever you are...I, like all the others...hope your'e happy. Content with the life you have led.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
HV-forever and for always!
I have been putting this off for too long…but I think its time now to let the world know about a certain someone who within the past few months has created an incredible effect on my life that I myself find it funny to really acknowledge the fact that someone can mean so much to you. I never really thought that we would keep in touch after that fateful meeting but we did! After that if ever I needed to cry or to bitch about something or just for the sake of talking to someone he was always there- unconditionally!
This post is a dedication to HV for always being my rock! I owe you big time! And yes…it might just sound cliché but I really have no words to express the amount of gratitude I have. Thank you and I hope we stay friends for life!
This post is a dedication to HV for always being my rock! I owe you big time! And yes…it might just sound cliché but I really have no words to express the amount of gratitude I have. Thank you and I hope we stay friends for life!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
listening and hearing
i was once asked by someone really special about why i found it hard to express my real feelings without giving a damn about what other people thought! at that point in time i really had no idea what the hell she was actually saying but years later when i sit thinking about it i realise now that maybe i should have paid more attention.
i was once asked by someone really special about why i found it so hard to speak the truth and believe in it with full conviction! at that point of time i knew that i wasnt going to pay any attention to this lecture but years later when i sit thinking i realise that i should have really listened and not just heard.
i was told by a really smart person who i had known for about 5 minutes before he told me this- "there is always a difference with listening and hearing!" i argued all the way but gave up towards the end when all he said was this- "if you had listened and not just heard what i said you would have won this argument! i was just spinning words to prove a point!"
i was once asked by someone really special about why i found it so hard to speak the truth and believe in it with full conviction! at that point of time i knew that i wasnt going to pay any attention to this lecture but years later when i sit thinking i realise that i should have really listened and not just heard.
i was told by a really smart person who i had known for about 5 minutes before he told me this- "there is always a difference with listening and hearing!" i argued all the way but gave up towards the end when all he said was this- "if you had listened and not just heard what i said you would have won this argument! i was just spinning words to prove a point!"
Thursday, May 7, 2009
My Silver Lining
2000-2005:
A normal day! Running around a crowded class-room; following friends to busy lab sessions; hiding in the library; peering and peeking from the big windows; leaving gifts in desks on birthdays; fighting over movies, music, food, football!!! Fun-times! 5 years of spending time with people who are on the same wave-length as you. Making friends for a life-time!
2005-2009:
It was one of those usual days when i was sitting around with nothing to do when i suddenly had the urge to talk to someone i could just blabber to and not make any sense and that wouldnt matter either. But its me we are talking about... nothing comes easy! I decided to call AAK. Dialed and then answered and for the first time in the 9 years that i have known him- the weridest thing happened- i was brushed aside- not intentionally but still done! I hung up not knowing what to do or say! Me- the biggest chatter-box of all times was silenced for the first time and why... because i havent moved on with time and i failed to notice that my friends had! I just took it for granted that they were all just where i was- back in time where probabaly i had happiness and everybody had time for everyone. The last time we had a serious discussion I realised that i had never really stuck by him through anything. Not that i didnt want to ...but i was lost myself to really help anyone else. But come to think of it now- I really wish that i had atleast been brave enough to support! There have been times since that day and before that day as well when I landed up cursing myself for being the person that I am. Its true what they say - Its difficult letting go of the people you love and for me- as much as i hate admitting it- im not that gud with sharing as well! But then it strikes me- people are not possessions to be shared or called your own! At some point of time they all will have to move on!
PRESENT TIME:
Im not worried that distance will seperate me from my friends! For now i dont have many things to be happy about but i know one thing for sure- taken from my favorite-John Mayer- The circle of your friends defend the silver lining. They are the only people that i look for ward to for happiness and no brushing off will make me let go! It was unintentional and im keeping it that way. I have to accept that there will always be people other than me in my friends' lives! Its time to move on and make a mark for myself. I live with the optimism that some day from now i will be closer to them in heart and distance. Some day from now I will be one with them again...
A normal day! Running around a crowded class-room; following friends to busy lab sessions; hiding in the library; peering and peeking from the big windows; leaving gifts in desks on birthdays; fighting over movies, music, food, football!!! Fun-times! 5 years of spending time with people who are on the same wave-length as you. Making friends for a life-time!
2005-2009:
It was one of those usual days when i was sitting around with nothing to do when i suddenly had the urge to talk to someone i could just blabber to and not make any sense and that wouldnt matter either. But its me we are talking about... nothing comes easy! I decided to call AAK. Dialed and then answered and for the first time in the 9 years that i have known him- the weridest thing happened- i was brushed aside- not intentionally but still done! I hung up not knowing what to do or say! Me- the biggest chatter-box of all times was silenced for the first time and why... because i havent moved on with time and i failed to notice that my friends had! I just took it for granted that they were all just where i was- back in time where probabaly i had happiness and everybody had time for everyone. The last time we had a serious discussion I realised that i had never really stuck by him through anything. Not that i didnt want to ...but i was lost myself to really help anyone else. But come to think of it now- I really wish that i had atleast been brave enough to support! There have been times since that day and before that day as well when I landed up cursing myself for being the person that I am. Its true what they say - Its difficult letting go of the people you love and for me- as much as i hate admitting it- im not that gud with sharing as well! But then it strikes me- people are not possessions to be shared or called your own! At some point of time they all will have to move on!
PRESENT TIME:
Im not worried that distance will seperate me from my friends! For now i dont have many things to be happy about but i know one thing for sure- taken from my favorite-John Mayer- The circle of your friends defend the silver lining. They are the only people that i look for ward to for happiness and no brushing off will make me let go! It was unintentional and im keeping it that way. I have to accept that there will always be people other than me in my friends' lives! Its time to move on and make a mark for myself. I live with the optimism that some day from now i will be closer to them in heart and distance. Some day from now I will be one with them again...
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