rain.walk.food.travel.friends.reunions.long viber calls.
perfect beginning to a vacation.
Monday, June 24, 2013
Saturday, June 1, 2013
for PT
Ah Birthdays! Everyone loves them. Everyone loves gifts. Everyone loves waiting till 12 and then being wished. Everyone loves blowing out the candles and cutting a cake. Whether your'e 60 or 6, for that one day- you are the star. you are what everything revolves around. and as much as people like to deny it- they do love the attention! But not Aju. Ah- we have to rewind a bit here for some history. Ajmal- or Aju as he is called by most is one of NN's friends and I was introduced to him under a tree on a rainy day. I was walking along with an umbrella held above my head when NN called me over and introduced me to this slightly muscular, tall straight faced guy who wouldn't look me in the eye. He nodded his greeting of hello and I said hey! We saw each other often after that- at some gathering or another and sometimes he would drop off a friend at my place or pick up someone from my place. He never stayed long. PT- as I call him is very easy to like once you know him. But if you don't you could be very very intimidated by him and that would be totally justified. :) Now while we are on that topic its Aju's birthday today and I actually managed to pull off a decent surprise for a man who has never celebrated his birthday! thats right! never! celebrated! never! I remember being very shocked when he told me that for that for the first time a few years back. I remember thinking then poor guy! But i was too far to really do anything for him. Bu not this time I thought. Too much time had passed without him doing something for his birthday! And that's when the wheels in my head started churning and plan came into place! :)
I will never forget the look in his eyes! He was happy. Maybe for the first time he blew a candle off a cupcake because he very smartly told me not to do anything funny- which meant get him a gift or a cake! But I'm one step ahead of you. So cupcake and collage! :)
I am secretly very happy that I did it. I was the reason for a smile on someone's face. And I haven't been this happy in a while! :)
So PT- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE TO WALK PLANET EARTH. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS LENDING A EAR WHEN I NEEDED ONE! THANK YYOU FOR BEING A TRUE GENTLEMAN AND FOR REMINDING ME THAT CHIVALRY IS NOT DEAD! I DONT KNOW HOW THE YEARS PASSED SO FAST!!! :) MUCH LOVE YOUR WAY! BIG HUGS!
I will never forget the look in his eyes! He was happy. Maybe for the first time he blew a candle off a cupcake because he very smartly told me not to do anything funny- which meant get him a gift or a cake! But I'm one step ahead of you. So cupcake and collage! :)
I am secretly very happy that I did it. I was the reason for a smile on someone's face. And I haven't been this happy in a while! :)
So PT- HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE TO WALK PLANET EARTH. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS LENDING A EAR WHEN I NEEDED ONE! THANK YYOU FOR BEING A TRUE GENTLEMAN AND FOR REMINDING ME THAT CHIVALRY IS NOT DEAD! I DONT KNOW HOW THE YEARS PASSED SO FAST!!! :) MUCH LOVE YOUR WAY! BIG HUGS!
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Room no:62 - happenings, secrets and hushed sniggers
there's fun in the small world of secrets and hushed discussions. Those intimate conversations that trigger a sly smile that forms on one's lips when you step out of the door. It never lets go of you. The confession of liking someone. The anger and wanting to kill someone. The silent green eyed monster that comes creeping out when no one's looking. The whispers of changes that want to be seen. The values learnt unintentionally through experiences shared. The look that comes with stealing the last biscuit. The look of fear that plays when you have broken something you shouldn't have touched. The shushing. The giggles. The stories that are served over cups of coffee and home-made food.
Bliss has a meaning of its own. Mine comes from the warmth that one feels when one is confided in. When someone shares a piece of what is theirs with me. Some knowledge changes your outlook on things. Some knowledge passes you by in the fleeting way it came. Some knowledge makes you wonder what you were doing till the day you knew it. and some knowledge- it just changes your life.
I always thought I would be the same person that I was when I walked into SBAAU. Turns out- I couldn't have been more wrong. It true what people say about how you appreciate the best things in life when you can reach them no more. Home-made food. Long phone calls in the middle of the night. Long walks. Shopping sprees. Being able to hold a friend's hand in the time of a crisis. and Secrets. Secrets that cannot be shared over an expensive ISD phone call or a hurried e-mail.
I miss being able to sit down in between friends and family. Listen to them talk and just watch the way they react.
But then I think of malayalam conversations Meera and me have about the crazy elephant lady and how no one but us gets it. I think of running to Abi itha and making sure that the decisions I make are right. I think of Nazneen jiji and how I can never find anything without her- my compass.
Life is different now. I've got a hang of the loneliness. But I still move through life like someone in their sleep. I refuse to use my brain for anything wise- it falls flat on students. But i wade along. There are times when I hit the occasional rash wave. But I move on. Putting one foot in front of the other. Baby steps.
As for secrets- when was there ever a dearth of them?
Bliss has a meaning of its own. Mine comes from the warmth that one feels when one is confided in. When someone shares a piece of what is theirs with me. Some knowledge changes your outlook on things. Some knowledge passes you by in the fleeting way it came. Some knowledge makes you wonder what you were doing till the day you knew it. and some knowledge- it just changes your life.
I always thought I would be the same person that I was when I walked into SBAAU. Turns out- I couldn't have been more wrong. It true what people say about how you appreciate the best things in life when you can reach them no more. Home-made food. Long phone calls in the middle of the night. Long walks. Shopping sprees. Being able to hold a friend's hand in the time of a crisis. and Secrets. Secrets that cannot be shared over an expensive ISD phone call or a hurried e-mail.
I miss being able to sit down in between friends and family. Listen to them talk and just watch the way they react.
But then I think of malayalam conversations Meera and me have about the crazy elephant lady and how no one but us gets it. I think of running to Abi itha and making sure that the decisions I make are right. I think of Nazneen jiji and how I can never find anything without her- my compass.
Life is different now. I've got a hang of the loneliness. But I still move through life like someone in their sleep. I refuse to use my brain for anything wise- it falls flat on students. But i wade along. There are times when I hit the occasional rash wave. But I move on. Putting one foot in front of the other. Baby steps.
As for secrets- when was there ever a dearth of them?
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Two Halves
Its been a while since I have written. I'm still not sure why I stopped writing as such. But, I'm glad that phase is over. How else am I supposed to vent? :P
Well, a lot has happened since I last wrote here. Though my last post was on the 2nd of July, I think I really wrote something worthwhile on the 2nd of January 2012.
It is 2013 now. I am in a different country. I am a different person. I believe in different things. I have different experiences. I react differently to different things. As you might have already guessed- 'Different' was the operative word for 2012. A month by month breakdown would have been funnier but Im lazy so I'll just sum up the year. Yes- ok- maybe it will take more time for the writing thing to come back to full force. For now...this shall do.
You know how people say- Its in adversity that you know who your'e true friends are. That statement is true. Last year, I lost friends. Last year, I made new friends. Last year, I strengthened ties with old friends. Last year, I mend bridges with people. Last year, I severed bridges to the point of no return. Last year, I fell in love. Last year, I fell out of love. Last year, I cried. I laughed. I giggled. I was angry. I was excited. I was surprised. I ate. I slept. I saved. I travelled. I shopped. I spent. I went clubbing. I celebrated my birthday in all four states in South India. I wore a dress, high heels and make up. I did things that I never thought I could. I did things that I'm glad I did. I also did silly things ... but that's for another post.
So to sum up- Growth, Maturity, Love, Travel and Transition. a whirlwind. 2012.
2012 can be split into two halves though. Before August and after. Here's what happened after. I gave up my job. I took up a new one in a country that has changed the way I look at everything. A country- like my friend Sherin rightly put it is- "an absolute torture to your social situation". No going out. No taking long walks. No nothing. It makes you grateful for what you had. It makes you realize who you want in your life. It makes you thankful for the people who are in your life. This country that is not my own has given me friends- friends who I learn from everyday. Lessons on life. Lessons on parenting. Lessons on being strong and standing up for what you believe is right. Lessons on when to shut up and when to talk. Lessons on saying NO. Lessons on faith. on trust. on hope.
2013 has just begun. I have no idea where I will be or what I will be doing but I'm excited as I always am. Its something new to look forward to. And like always thanks are due again. I will never tire of doing this. It is necessary to let the people you love know that you love them.
Mom and Dad: Thank you. For standing up and saying that I'm old enough to make my own decisions. for being the best parents in the world.
Mrit: for trusting my decisions and supporting them as always. My better half.
Varma: for surprising me every day. for letting me go even though you thought I shouldn't go. For fighting with me for me. :*
Aarthi: you could be anywhere in the world and I know that your'e always wishing the best for me as I am for you.
Ona: For being my strength through the toughest year. for lending me your ears at all times. For understanding things that only you could. For believing in me. Unconditionally.
Ashmita: for being my Jiminy Cricket. It sums it all.
Meenamma: because I know for sure that I will always be your daughter too.
KIA: because no one else thinks as highly of me as you do. For always being there.
Ali: for being there for me. For always having my back.
Nishath: for keeping an eye on my parents for me. For always making the effort to stay in touch. Another year dude! :)
Faffa: for always checking up on me and telling me that I'm strong enough to handle anything that comes my way.
Babu: for languages. for laughter. for fun.
Vivek: for all the love.
Raouf: For always being a phone call away. I never did say thank you for October! :)
PT: because we can talk about anything and be sure that we will never judge each other. for comfort.
Pratheesh ettan & Riji chechi: for being my family away from home.
Meera: for telling me that life is not always bad. Believe in the good moments.
Abi chechi & Nasir ikka: for giving me a space in their life that I cherish.
Nazneen jiji & Suhail bhai: for still not being able to decide whose sister I am. :P
Asma begum: for khana. for chit-chat.
Majumdar,Thomas, Aravind, D, Nambiar, Jitha- Thank you. for everything.
Hiba, Dania, Minna, Mrudul, Anirudh and my darling Mani kutty- I live my childhood through you kids.
and everybody else who made 2012 wonderful for me. Thank you.
If you think I have forgotten you- I havent.
B: for love. for faith. for courage. for a blue room. for memories cherished for a lifetime. for 2012. For being in my life. <3
So, 2013 dawns well for now. I stop here hoping that next year, I'll have a lot more to tell you about the new place where I am or the new people I have met.
After all- What is life if your'e not seeing anything new!
Bring it on 2013!
Cheers.
Well, a lot has happened since I last wrote here. Though my last post was on the 2nd of July, I think I really wrote something worthwhile on the 2nd of January 2012.
It is 2013 now. I am in a different country. I am a different person. I believe in different things. I have different experiences. I react differently to different things. As you might have already guessed- 'Different' was the operative word for 2012. A month by month breakdown would have been funnier but Im lazy so I'll just sum up the year. Yes- ok- maybe it will take more time for the writing thing to come back to full force. For now...this shall do.
You know how people say- Its in adversity that you know who your'e true friends are. That statement is true. Last year, I lost friends. Last year, I made new friends. Last year, I strengthened ties with old friends. Last year, I mend bridges with people. Last year, I severed bridges to the point of no return. Last year, I fell in love. Last year, I fell out of love. Last year, I cried. I laughed. I giggled. I was angry. I was excited. I was surprised. I ate. I slept. I saved. I travelled. I shopped. I spent. I went clubbing. I celebrated my birthday in all four states in South India. I wore a dress, high heels and make up. I did things that I never thought I could. I did things that I'm glad I did. I also did silly things ... but that's for another post.
So to sum up- Growth, Maturity, Love, Travel and Transition. a whirlwind. 2012.
2012 can be split into two halves though. Before August and after. Here's what happened after. I gave up my job. I took up a new one in a country that has changed the way I look at everything. A country- like my friend Sherin rightly put it is- "an absolute torture to your social situation". No going out. No taking long walks. No nothing. It makes you grateful for what you had. It makes you realize who you want in your life. It makes you thankful for the people who are in your life. This country that is not my own has given me friends- friends who I learn from everyday. Lessons on life. Lessons on parenting. Lessons on being strong and standing up for what you believe is right. Lessons on when to shut up and when to talk. Lessons on saying NO. Lessons on faith. on trust. on hope.
2013 has just begun. I have no idea where I will be or what I will be doing but I'm excited as I always am. Its something new to look forward to. And like always thanks are due again. I will never tire of doing this. It is necessary to let the people you love know that you love them.
Mom and Dad: Thank you. For standing up and saying that I'm old enough to make my own decisions. for being the best parents in the world.
Mrit: for trusting my decisions and supporting them as always. My better half.
Varma: for surprising me every day. for letting me go even though you thought I shouldn't go. For fighting with me for me. :*
Aarthi: you could be anywhere in the world and I know that your'e always wishing the best for me as I am for you.
Ona: For being my strength through the toughest year. for lending me your ears at all times. For understanding things that only you could. For believing in me. Unconditionally.
Ashmita: for being my Jiminy Cricket. It sums it all.
Meenamma: because I know for sure that I will always be your daughter too.
KIA: because no one else thinks as highly of me as you do. For always being there.
Ali: for being there for me. For always having my back.
Nishath: for keeping an eye on my parents for me. For always making the effort to stay in touch. Another year dude! :)
Faffa: for always checking up on me and telling me that I'm strong enough to handle anything that comes my way.
Babu: for languages. for laughter. for fun.
Vivek: for all the love.
Raouf: For always being a phone call away. I never did say thank you for October! :)
PT: because we can talk about anything and be sure that we will never judge each other. for comfort.
Pratheesh ettan & Riji chechi: for being my family away from home.
Meera: for telling me that life is not always bad. Believe in the good moments.
Abi chechi & Nasir ikka: for giving me a space in their life that I cherish.
Nazneen jiji & Suhail bhai: for still not being able to decide whose sister I am. :P
Asma begum: for khana. for chit-chat.
Majumdar,Thomas, Aravind, D, Nambiar, Jitha- Thank you. for everything.
Hiba, Dania, Minna, Mrudul, Anirudh and my darling Mani kutty- I live my childhood through you kids.
and everybody else who made 2012 wonderful for me. Thank you.
If you think I have forgotten you- I havent.
B: for love. for faith. for courage. for a blue room. for memories cherished for a lifetime. for 2012. For being in my life. <3
So, 2013 dawns well for now. I stop here hoping that next year, I'll have a lot more to tell you about the new place where I am or the new people I have met.
After all- What is life if your'e not seeing anything new!
Bring it on 2013!
Cheers.
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