M.C.C.

one-side love... mobiles ons silent mode... bus stand comedies... escape from seminars... last period cuts... birthday treats... last minute preparations... over night study for the next day exam... friend's family functions... internal marks problems... mass bunk for a film... eager wait for feb 14th... shortage of pocket money and attendance... fights...tears...debates... conversation classes... stupid crushes... noisy lunchtimes... political strikes... irritating watchman... one day tours... fashion shows... centenary celebrations... department events... strict and unstrict teachers... gangs...


this is what im taking back from the 100 year old lady-Malabar Christian College. As i walked to the bus stop today i realised that even though i hate accepting the fact... i might just miss this god-forsaken place! and why...i wish i had just one reason!

KAIZORA '06-'09

this was by far the weirdest day ever! it was a day when i was happy and sad together... confused and finally settled on something at the same time... inferior and the centre of attraction... and all this at the same time! for the first time in a long time today i felt beautiful. today i was on top of the world and down in the dumps at the same time and thats what made this one stand out so much from the other bothersome days that i have gone through.


today friends became friends again. today life took a new turn. today lessons were learnt. today was an energy booster.
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today was plain WORTH-WHILE!

this just in... was going through a friends list where 25 things on that list described exactly what she was. I couldnt even think of 10. That is how bad the situation is.
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I need to take time to get to know the real me again. Looks like its time to get back to who i am. Not having an identity is one thing but trying to be something your not is just not acceptable.

what one failure can do!

Its weird now...when your sitting in a class full of people who you have known for the past three years and your as alone as you were when you first set foot into this college.

Thats how alone you feel when realisation strikes you that there is no one you call your own but yourself. At the end of the day... only you will be there for yourself!

As for the people who thought were your friends... its time to think again and ask yourself if it was all worth it or are they just people you do nothing but compromise your identity for?

At this time, the only thing that floats through my head is what a friend once told me- " There is no such thing as real love in this world. Its all either for some selfish reason or just because we cannot live alone."
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I agree now!

one of these days!

im closing in on the end of the academic year, im confused and mom is screaming her lungs out saying it is time for me to be focussed! im not really sure what i want to do and where im finally going to go but one thing is for sure... there are only a few things that im going to keep with me from this place...one being experience! its funny how people always said that 'if u survived Georges, you can survive anywhere'. i think 'if u can survive MCC, u can rule the world'.
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i have just decided now within the few seconds that i got free without my phone ringing that i will do something with my life and this time nothing is going to stand in the way!

absolutely nothing!

will we ever be really ready for life?

Its funny to think sbout the effect that some people can have on you. They effect you in such a way that you never know how you're going to react to it and thats what surprises you about yourself!
Someone wise told me that all you need to survive in this world are a hard heart, the ability to 'kiss-ass', a competetive spirit and tons of ambition. Now someone please correct me if im wrong- Napolean was poisoned; Caesar was stabbed; Hitler committed suicide and even Mahatma Gandhi though different from all these 'so-called qualities' was assasinated.
So now there are only two conclusions: 1: The person who told me was completely dumb and 2: You never know what life is going to throw at you so give up trying to be completely ready because life is something that happens to you after you have made all your fool-proof plans!

bye 2008; hello 2009!

The start of a new year and the only thing running through my head is- Resolutions! Will I keep the ones I made? Do I really have the perseverance to make it through another hard year? Just like India has suffered I have lost! At a point in the past year there have been times when I hated the face I saw when I stood in front of the mirror. I hated the fact that I was gullible by choice and that would never change no matter what! I hated the fact that I was the last one to know when a friend was in trouble! I hated the way I reacted to it! I hated quite a lot of things!
It’s funny how people go their whole lives believing something and then somewhere down the lane they find out that all that was a lie and this is what they call Life. Life- there is no book that can teach you how to live it! It just comes- how shall I put it- Naturally!

So to a boring 2008 I bid adieu and its hello to 2009! This year I’m sticking to the resolutions I’ve made… after all you learn from experience that some resolutions are better kept for a happier and brighter future!

For all those of you who actually read what I just wrote- hats off!! On a more serious note…here’s wishing all of you a happy, prosperous and peace filled New Year!

Good luck and god bless!