Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Its been 3 years since I posted anything on my blog. I remember starting this page years back with the urge to write and write and keep writing and then somewhere along the way, I lost track of what was important to me. I lost track of what made me- ME! Writing, Music, Art work... It had all come to a halt. All that, however, is going to change and its going to change now. This year (2016) has been an odd year of both good happenings and bad. This year my whole world changed. This year I have had to bear more responsibility for the person I am and who I chose/wanted to be. I moved from one side of the world to the other side. Miles and miles away from family, friends and everything that was familiar to me. My dad being unwell didn't help my confidence to do so but he thought it was the right thing for me to do- so here I am. Far away. This year I went from being an I to being part of a We. This is the year that everything was redefined. 

I resigned from a really good job in January this year and have not been working since. It has given me a lot of time to ponder and procrastinate. I thought it would be a good break for me- I have, after all, been working for the better part of my adult life. I couldn't have been more wrong. I realized very quickly that I didn't like the free time. I didn't like not having anything to do. I didn't like the emptiness I felt when I was not fully vested in something. I missed the whole pace of my life that was. It's at moments like these where you realize that you need to get up, get a grip and do something to change the monotony that is this life.

My little Ronjus told me a couple of days back that I am capable of so much more and it pushed me to think of the person I used to be. I may never be able to go back and be the same but moving forward, I know the things I don't want and Im going to make sure that I make the changes that I want to see. 

You guys are going to hear a lot more from me. Frequently too. :) 

1 comment:

nishath said...

Hello, where are the frequent musings?

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